I felt a little disappointed with myself at rehearsal today. I knew where I wanted to be lines wise by today. I put a lot on the shoulders of “Sunday.” I wanted today to be the day I was perfect and I’m just not there yet, specifically in terms of lines and acting through beats that we have already discussed in rehearsals. I want to be at a place where all I can do is add. I don’t want it to feel like I’m repeating mistakes or even worse, moving backwards. The only way that I can tell Margot’s story in a convincing way is if this play is word perfect. I know it’s a lot of lines and I know I have been intimidated by it, but I know that I can do it. The due date has passed. They are due. Let’s go Emmy!
I really enjoyed some of the elements of play that we brought into the space today! We played several games as a group today while we reworked our most challenging scenes! I enjoyed playing with the lessac movements most! I think they are so helpful when portraying Margot. We see her going through so many drastically different challenging moments and the energy that she carries in her body changes each time! It’s terrifying but so interesting to explore! There are moments of peace in her where she moves in glide or press and then moments of chaos where she moves in flick or punch. It’s so much fun to explore! I hope I can continue working on that as we move into tech!
We also did a “speedrun” today and I think that I need to start incorporating that into my daily life. It really allowed my listening ears to open as I had to listen in order to react on time to what my castmates were saying! Another game we played was one in which we had to react to everything happening in the scene with “no way” or “oh yeah”! This game was an absolute blast and it allowed me to recognise just how much I am going to have to fill the silence with both my energy and my voice! It is okay to make sounds! I question if I could do a run this week where I make as much noise as possible. I love the idea of setting that goal for myself. I think today was an incredibly helpful day for me. And the lines will be ok! I just have to pull it together and remember that I am brave!