Today we ran through the middle of play, while starting and stopping for tech. It was such a joy! Today was just a Jonah, Ben, and Emmy day where we worked on the fight scene and then the events that follow it, when Tony comes in and discovers that Lesgate has been murdered!
I had so much fun going through every beat and making sure that each moment felt right to the three of us and made sense for the story that we are trying to tell. Today I had lots of time to explore each individual beat and element. In the past, with other shows, tech rehearsals have felt stretched out to me, as if time is dragging on. However, this process doesn’t feel like that. We are allowed to MOVE during our holds, which has never been a part of my process before! I have so much room to move about as my character, figure out my costumes, work with the props, ask questions, and think! It is heavenly! There are so many moments to play and explore and having these holds gives me so much time to work in the room. I feel really blessed to have that time!
The energy in the room was so lovely today, both with my fellow actors and with the crew, dressers, and designers. Today was productive and fun. I’m most proud of myself for really learning to relax and be comfortable in the rehearsal room. Everyone here wants me to succeed and grow. It’s okay to focus on and understand what is required to make these moments special! Whatever I need to make happen to get to that point, everyone is there with me, supporting it! I’m not alone.
I really want to focus, moving forward on my voice. I want to over-articulate until I drive myself insane. I want to be understood. I hate when people tell me that they can’t understand me following a performance. I have been working so hard to improve and there’s still so much farther to go! I can do it!