I think today I made some strides to improve my vocals. I honestly was a little confused about my Marc session today. Usually the thing that we’re working towards is more tonality. So during the process of Dial M I have been developing a stronger vocal and physical warm up. It’s full of lip trills, +y buzzing, and humming. I feel like I have made strides in the amount of tone that I possess! Which has been so freeing and so much fun! I feel I have expanded on what I learned in my Voice and Body class! It’s been so much fun to actively expand that skillset! I have been working very hard to make sure that my warm ups help me to improve when I’m actually on stage. My routine is becoming more connected, intentional, and focused, which I think is lovely!
Tone is the only way for a voice as soft and feminine as mine to reach all the way to the back of Klein. It is something that I have been working really hard at. Everyone backstage messes with me, saying they can hear me coming from a mile away! I get there early to get into makeup while I hum and then I spend some time doing some final stretching, y-buzzing, sirens, and lip trills in the stairways. I have loved learning to be a noisy, scary creature during this project!
However, today in a private vocal session, Marc and I discussed that consonant energy is more of the thing we’re looking towards as this show progresses! I am grateful for this challenge. This weekend is all about being uncomfortable and trying my best to be understood! Consonant energy is the focus now. I am going to focus on playing every syllable like a different musical instrument. It definitely felt weird and super slow to me last night. It’s simply a different sensation in my mouth! But Marc has assured me that is a good thing! I am excited for this skill to improve and get better every day this weekend! I can do it!
Growth is always my goal. I want that to be extremely clear. I think that lack of effort and perfection are the two opposite ends of the success spectrum. I think that both ends are at the forefront of unsuccessful art. I want to try as hard as I possibly can and I never want to be perfect. As soon as you think it’s “perfect” you’ve failed in my view. It’s art! It is continuous and growing and it always should be. I think this skillset that I am learning just has to get better and better each day. That is success to me!